My 5 Year Old Self
In Music Video

[00:00–00:02] EGGSHELLS — HALLWAY WIDE SHOT
Camera: static locked-off wide shot from the end of a narrow hallway, low to the ground
child's eye level, slight handheld tremor
Subject: a young boy aged 6 to 8, pale skin, dark brown short cropped hair, small build,
wearing dark navy shorts and a red and grey striped long-sleeve t-shirt with white
ankle socks and dirty trainers, pressing his back flat against the hallway wall,
knees slightly bent, arms rigid at his sides, face frozen in wide-eyed silent fear,
staring toward a closed door at the far end of the hall from which a deep muffled
shouting voice can be heard
Environment: narrow 1985 British terraced house hallway, woodchip wallpaper painted
cream with scuff marks and a dent in the plasterboard near the skirting board, a
coat rack with adult coats hanging heavy and dark, worn brown carpet runner, a single
bare bulb on the ceiling casting a weak amber cone downward, a telephone table with
a rotary dial telephone, a letterbox in the front door at the far end with cold grey
light leaking through
Lighting: single 40 watt bare bulb overhead, weak amber glow cutting into cold grey
shadow, the closed door at the far end backlit by a sliver of aggressive orange light
underneath it, hex tones #C8A96E and #1A1410
Color palette: faded cream, worn brown, cold shadow grey, weak amber — all processed
through heavy 35mm Kodak Gold 200 grain, faded and slightly yellowed as 1985 British
home photography, underexposed edges bleeding to near black
Atmosphere: oppressive stillness, heavy film grain across the entire frame, dust
particles caught in the bulb light, vignette crushing the corners to black, chromatic
colour bleed on the bare bulb highlight, the visual texture of a found photograph
pulled from a drawer
Mood: paralysed fear, suffocating tension, a child making himself invisible

[00:02–00:05] THE BEAST — SHADOW ON THE WALL
Camera: slow rack focus from the boy's terrified face in the foreground to the
hallway wall behind him where a massive distorted shadow of an adult male figure
is growing larger as it approaches the door from the other side
Subject: the boy from the previous shot now seen in soft focus foreground, his breath
visible in the cold air, eyes locked on the growing shadow, one hand gripping the
wallpaper behind him — the adult figure is never shown directly, only as a vast
looming shadow with raised arm silhouette against the wall
Environment: same 1985 British hallway, shadow growing across the woodchip wallpaper
consuming the space, the sliver of aggressive orange light under the door widening
as if someone is approaching from the other side
Lighting: the shadow cast by the unseen adult consuming the warm amber light,
aggressive orange backlight under the door intensifying, the boy's face catching the
last edge of the bulb glow, hex tones #E8610A and #0D0907
Color palette: deep shadow black, aggressive amber orange, faded cream consumed by
darkness — 35mm Kodak Gold 200 grain heavy throughout, high contrast, colours
burning slightly in the orange zones as overexposed 1985 film stock would
Atmosphere: shadow growing in slow motion, grain surging in the dark areas, the
orange under-door light flickering slightly, total silence implied, vignette
completely crushing the frame edges to black
Mood: raging bull approaching, volcanic unpredictability, pure childhood dread

[00:00–00:03] THE BULL — MAN AND BOY RUNNING
Camera sits low at ground level facing forward as a man in his early forties, shaved head, grey stubble beard, white skin, olive green military field jacket, white t-shirt, dark jeans, runs toward the camera through the ancient
British forest in absolute panic, face twisted in fear,
arms pumping, branches whipping past him — behind him a massive enraged bull with dark matted fur and wild bloodshot eyes charges through the trees at full speed, its hooves shaking the forest floor, breath exploding from its nostrils in violent clouds, trees splintering as it tears through — cut to the same forest seconds later, a young boy aged 6 to 8, pale skin, dark brown short cropped hair, wearing a silver NASA bomber jacket, dark shorts, colourful trainers and a navy captain cap, also running in absolute terror toward the camera
through the same forest, the same enraged bull charging behind him through the identical treeline, both the
man and the boy running from the same beast in separate
moments cutting between them rapidly, the bull identical in both shots, the forest identical, the fear identical.
Heavy 35mm Kodak Gold 200 film grain, handheld violent
shaking, vignette crushing corners to black, hex tones
#1C1F18 #6B3FA0 #D4A017. Mood: primal terror, the past and present fleeing the same rage.

[00:03–00:06] LEVITATION — RISING THROUGH THE CANOPY
The man running in full panic suddenly begins to rise
off the forest floor involuntarily, his legs still
pumping in running motion as his feet leave the ground,
body lifting upward in a slow uncontrolled levitation,
arms reaching downward grasping at nothing, face
shifting from terror to bewildered surrender as the
canopy rushes toward him, the bull below still charging
and thrashing as the man rises beyond its reach, camera rising with him tracking upward as he passes through the symmetrical leaf canopy, branches parting around
his floating body, leaves spiralling around him as he
breaks through the treetops into the open sky above,
the forest shrinking beneath him, the bull a small
furious shape far below crashing through the trees,
the man now fully suspended above the canopy carried
upward by an invisible force, body slowly tilting
backward as he rises, legs trailing beneath him.
Film grain surging, chromatic aberration splitting
the canopy edges into spectral trails, hex tones
#7A8C6E #D4A017 #1A0A2E. Mood: escape through
surrender, rising beyond the reach of the beast.

[00:06–00:09] STARS ALIGN — SKY SHATTERS — PORTAL OPENS
The man now floating above the forest canopy in open
sky, the sun setting violently on the horizon in deep
crimson and burnt amber, stars appearing through cracks in the sky before nightfall aligning into spiral
formations rotating around a central point directly
above him, the sky surface then shattering outward
like enormous panes of broken glass, vast shards of
sky spinning and separating in slow motion each shard
reflecting the forest below from a different angle,
the shards parting to reveal a vast circular portal
beyond the sky, the portal interior a deep swirling
vortex of amber and violet light with fractal geometry
patterns lining its curved walls, the man's body now
tilting fully backward in slow motion as the portal
pulls him toward it, his arms spreading wide, face
turning upward toward the swirling portal above him,
expression shifting from panic to awe, the broken
sky shards floating slowly around his body catching
the last crimson sunset light as he is drawn upward
into the portal opening. Chromatic aberration heavy,
fractal patterns bleeding across all surfaces, film
grain surging, hex tones #8B0000 #D4820A #6B3FA0
#1A0A2E. Mood: the sky breaking open, surrender
to the unknown.

[00:09–00:12] FALLING BACKWARD — THE RABBIT HOLE
The man falling backward down through the portal
tunnel at increasing speed, body fully reclined at
45 degrees arms spread wide, the tunnel walls formed
from the same ancient British forest compressed into
a circular shaft with tree roots spiralling the walls,
bioluminescent fractal patterns racing upward past
him as he falls, childhood objects tumbling alongside
him in the same freefall, a worn stuffed rabbit, a
Rubiks Cube, torn picture book pages, a cracked mirror
fragment, a wilted flower — then the young boy in the
silver NASA jacket appears in the tunnel also falling
backward alongside the man, both tumbling together
through the same shaft in slow motion, the boy and
the man falling side by side, the boy looking across
at the man with wide frightened eyes, the man looking
back at the boy with recognition and calm, a moment
of connection between them as they fall together,
the tunnel below narrowing toward an infinite dark
horizon consuming the frame, the amber iris colour
bleeding from the tunnel walls in one final pulse,
the boy slowly dissolving into particles of amber
and gold light as the darkness below takes the frame.
Film grain consuming entire frame, hex tones #C8860A
#6B3FA0 #1A0A2E #000000. No cut no end card. Frame
holds on the man falling alone as the amber light
fades to nothing.

[00:00–00:02] 1985 BEDROOM — THE BOY ON THE BED
Camera opens on a wide establishing shot
of an authentic 1985 British child's bedroom,
woodchip wallpaper painted magnolia with
blu-tack marks, a single child's bed with
a vibrant Superman logo duvet cover and
matching pillow, the boy sitting on the
edge of the bed, aged 6 to 8, pale skin,
dark brown short cropped hair, wearing a
plain grey school jumper, dark shorts and
white ankle socks, holding a large snow
globe in both hands with intense childlike
concentration — on the wall directly behind
the bed three large movie posters pinned
side by side, a Back to the Future poster
showing the DeLorean with its distinctive
gull-wing doors and flame trails, a Goonies
poster with the full cast running in
adventure, a Gremlins poster with Gizmo
front and centre — on the shelf beside
the bed three Gremlins plush toys standing
upright in a row, Gizmo and two Mogwai
figures — on the floor beside the bed a
large detailed toy DeLorean from Back to
the Future with its gull-wing doors open
catching the weak amber bedroom light —
a small Ferguson portable television on
a chipboard unit in the corner, net
curtains over a single sash window with
grey British daylight pushing through.
35mm Kodak Gold 200 film grain, faded
warm amber bulb light, cold grey window
light, vignette crushing corners, hex
tones #C8A96E #3D3527 #1C1F18. Mood:
a child in his sanctuary, the outside
world held at bay.

[00:02–00:05] THE SNOW GLOBE — VOLCANO INSIDE
Camera pushes slowly toward the snow globe
in the boy's hands, his small fingers
wrapped around the glass sphere, the globe
containing an impossibly detailed miniature
world inside, a vast active volcano at its
centre rising from a wide open green field,
the volcano already rumbling and glowing
deep orange at its crater, as the boy
begins to shake the globe the miniature
volcano responds immediately, orange lava
beginning to pour slowly over the lip of
the crater and down the sides in thick
glowing rivers, volcanic dust and ash
rising upward inside the globe filling
the upper half of the sphere, the green
field around the base of the volcano
catching the orange lava glow, tiny
fractal ember particles swirling inside
the glass like snow in a traditional
snow globe but replaced entirely with
volcanic ash and glowing cinders — the
boy shaking the globe with increasing
intensity, his expression shifting from
curiosity to wide-eyed fascination, the
volcano inside responding to each shake
with more lava and more ash, the orange
glow from inside the globe casting warm
light across the boy's face and the
Superman duvet behind him. Film grain
surging, hex tones #E8610A #D4A017
#8B0000 #C8A96E. Mood: contained
energy held in a child's hands,
beautiful and powerful and small.

[00:05–00:08] INTO THE GLOBE — RUNNING FROM THE VOLCANO
Camera continues its slow push into
the snow globe glass surface, the
curved glass filling the entire frame,
then accelerates through the glass
surface entering the miniature world
inside the globe, the world inside
expanding to full scale as the camera
crosses the glass boundary, the same
green field now vast and stretching
to the horizon, the enormous volcano
filling the sky behind it, orange
lava pouring down its flanks in thick
slow rivers, volcanic ash and glowing
cinders raining downward from the
churning amber cloud above the crater,
the sky inside the globe deep amber
and crimson from the volcano glow —
the young boy, same pale skin dark
brown short cropped hair, now wearing
his silver NASA bomber jacket, dark
shorts, colourful trainers and navy
captain cap, running at full speed
across the green field directly toward
the camera, away from the volcano
behind him, arms pumping, face wide
with pure exhilaration and excitement,
the volcano erupting more powerfully
behind him as he runs, lava and ash
cascading down toward the field, the
boy running faster, the camera pulling
back at the same speed keeping him
centred in the frame, the vast volcanic
eruption filling the entire sky behind
him in spectacular amber and crimson.
Heavy 35mm Kodak Gold 200 film grain
throughout, volcanic ash particles
raining across the frame, chromatic
aberration on the lava light, vignette
crushing the edges, hex tones #E8610A
#D4A017 #8B0000 #7A8C6E. No cut no
end card. Frame holds on the boy
running toward camera, the volcano
erupting magnificently behind him,
ash raining across the frame.